Infertility sucks!

I write this post as I sit here at yet another doctor appointment. These past 2 plus years have probably been some of the most difficult for me. As many of you know Jarom and I have been trying to have more children for over two years. We had two miscarriages and now for over two years have had zero success in getting pregnant. It stinks. Friends and family keep getting pregnant with zero effort and I on the other had have spent every extra dollar and shed more tears than I care to think about. But still no baby.  The crazy thing about it all is that we had Allie with no problems at all. We tried once and 9 months later out she came. I realize now what a miracle she truly is. 

My little miracle

I've been pretty guarded about all my infertility stuff and wasn't sure if I wanted to share it with the whole blogging world but then I came across some random persons blog who shared her experience with infertility. I have read that blog many times for comfort and strength.  I don't know if this person has any idea how her writings have helped me but I decided that if even one person came across my blog that was struggling with infertility and found it helpful it would be worth writing my experiences down.  Also, I do treat my blog like a journal.  My life isn't always easy and happy and this is the real me.  So, I've decided to share my experiences with others.  I hope that one day I'll be glad I wrote my thoughts and feelings down and possibly see the growth in my life.  Most importantly I hope that by writing my experiences down that I will be able to see the hand of my Heavenly Father in my life.  Because these last couple of years I have really wondered if he is there and if he is listening.