Updates

Allie playing in shaving cream.  She loves to be busy and this is what I came up with.  She had a blast! 

Yes...I know it's been a while.  Life has just been busy as usual.  But I decided that today was the day to update the blog.  I have a lot of updates too!  First on the list?  We moved!  Yup. We did it!  We moved into a brand new house that is all ours.  I know it's kind of crazy to think but we own a home.  It is so fun.  We have really enjoyed being home owners thus far.  Can I tell you how nice it is to not share walls? 

Second? My grandpa Paskett passed away at the end of February. He was 94 years old. It was actually a very good thing. He had started to decline the last few month and was just worn out. We were happy to not see him suffer any more. We moved into our home and a few days later we took off for his funeral. It was a little bit stressful but we did it.  Here a few of the photos from his funeral.  In the last two years between Jarom and I we have buried four grandparents.  That is quite a bit. 

My sister Natalie being silly.  Don't you just love sisters? 

My Grandma Paskett next sitting next to her husband of 72 years.  Wow! 

My Uncle Phil, Dad and Grandmother all next to my Grandpa's casket.

The whole family.  It was so fun to be with everyone!  I love family!

My little Allie loves, loves, loves snow.  She doesn't see it much living in St. George and I couldn't keep her out of it.  She had very wet shoes and tights after we were done at the cemetery. 

Another family photo.

My nieces and nephew being silly.  They are getting so big...which means that I'm getting old!

Other news?  I'm sure you are all hoping that I'm going to write that I'm pregnant.  I wish it too.  But I'm not.  This has been the hardest thing for me.  We've been going to a fertility doctor since the first part of February.  Not a lot of answers though.  I had a surgery on the 5th of March to clean up any scar tissues that may have been there from the D&C's that I had after my miscarriages.  They think that could have something with my not being able to get pregnant.  My hormone levels have all come back looking good.  This month we are actually doing fertility treatments.  I've been taking Letrozole to increase how many eggs that I ovulate and Jarom will be giving a little sample and we will do insemination, which is where they place the little swimmers inside of me at the time I'm ovulating.  I went in to the doctor yesterday to have an ultrasound to see where my eggs were in development.  I was only at 13mm and my doctor wants me to be at 18-20mm before the insemination can take place.  So I go back in tomorrow to see if I've grown at all.  If not then we will be done for this cycle and try again next month. 

Is this easy?  No way!  I've shed more tear and spent more money than I wish to think about.  Last night I just cried my eyes out to Jarom asking him why Heavenly Father has to make everything so hard for me.  Yes...I know I have a great life.  A wonderful husband, a beautiful daughter, a new home, a fabulous job, but the one thing that I want the very most I can't have.  It took me 31 years to find a husband (and he was well worth the wait) but now it's taking everything I have to get a family.  When for most people these two things come so easily.  Needless to say I'm feeling sorry for myself.  That is it.  Jarom is so good to me.  He just puts his arms around me and tells me that everything is going to be okay.  Which I know he is right but it doesn't make it any easier.  This whole thing is hard for him as well.  Wish me luck and say a prayer for me that tomorrow when I go to the doctor that things will be better not worse. 

Well, I have a few more things that I would like to post but I'm running out of time.  I will do another post really soon for more updates.  I hear my little Allie in the next room awake from her nap.  My duty calls.